Believe In The Moment

Lianne:           VOLKA, tell me: Is our fate already sealed for us, before we start our lives?  Are we destined to live and die a certain way?    

VOLKA:          YOUR LIFE IS NOT PREDETERMINED, THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE YOU CHOOSE YOUR DESTINY. WITH EVERY DECISION YOU MAKE, IT CHANGES YOUR DIRECTION AND THEN YOU MAKE MORE DECISIONS.    

Lianne:           But my father, did he decide that he wanted to die?    

VOLKA:          YOUR FATHER MADE DECISIONS ALL THROUGH HIS LIFE THAT LED HIM TO THE CONDITION HE WAS IN, WHICH IN TURN, LEAD HIM TO THE OPERATION. WHEN THEY TOLD HIM HE NEEDED AN OPERATION, HE CHOSE TO GO THROUGH WITH IT. WHILE HE WAS BEING OPERATED HE HAD A CHOICE TO LIVE OR DIE.  HE CHOSE TO DIE.    

Lianne:           But why did he want to die? Didn't he love us?  Didn't he want to stay?    

VOLKA:          OF COURSE HE LOVED YOU. BUT YOUR FATHER WAS READY FOR A NEW ADVENTURE. HE WAS A VERY ACTIVE MAN. TO LIVE IN AN UNHEALTHY BODY WAS NOT A CHALLENGE HE WANTED TO TACKLE.    

Lianne:           My mother would certainly disagree with you. She says that he wanted to live, only it's his heart that gave out.    

VOLKA:          IT WAS HIS CHOICE TO HAVE HIS HEART STOP. IT IS HARD TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE COMPLETE RESPONSIBILITY FOR WHAT HAPPENS IN OUR LIVES EVEN OUR DEATH.    

Lianne:           But that can't be! What if I was in an accident or something? Like, lets say I was run over by a bus? I would never choose a thing like that.    

VOLKA:          THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS AN ACCIDENT AND THERE ARE MANY REASONS FOR SOMEONE TO CHOOSE THAT PARTICULAR SITUATION. THERE ARE AS MANY REASONS AS THERE ARE DIFFERENT PEOPLE IN THE WORLD.  IT COULD BE KARMA. FOR EXAMPLE IN A PREVIOUS LIFE THERE COULD HAVE BEEN A REVERSAL OF ROLES.  YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THE BUS DRIVER AND THE BUS DRIVER COULD HAVE BEEN THE VICTIM.    

Lianne:           So I would purposely run in front of a bus? That is ridiculous!    

VOLKA:          CONSCIOUSLY YOU WOULD NOT RUN OUT IN FRONT OF A BUS.  BUT SUBCONSCIOUSLY YOU MIGHT. CONSCIOUSLY THOUGH WE WILL CHOSE TO BE CARELESS OR NOT. SUBCONSCIOUSLY ONE COULD BE UNHAPPY WITH ONESELF AND COULD BE CARRYING MUCH HATRED, GUILT AND FEAR THAT CAN DESTROY ONESSELF WHETHER IN AN ACCIDENT OR AN ILLNESS.  ALSO ONE MIGHT CHOOSE TO BE IN AN ACCIDENT TO TEACH SOMEONE CLOSE TO THEM WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LOSE SOMEONE DEAR.    

Lianne:           Aw come on VOLKA! Why would anyone do that?    

VOLKA:          PEOPLE NEED TO LEARN ALL KINDS OF LESSONS IN THIS WORLD.  WE CHOSE TO LEARN OUR LESSONS AND THERE WILL BE LOVED ONES THAT WILL CHOSE TO BE THE VEHICLE FOR THAT LESSON.  LESSONS MAKE PEOPLE STRONGER.  EVEN THE WORST DISASTER CAN BE A PURPOSE OF GROWTH.  SOME WILL DIE SO OTHERS WILL GROW.  BUT BOTH PARTIES WILL HAVE CHOSEN THEIR ROLE.  WHAT BIGGER DISPLAY OF LOVE CAN THERE BE, THEM TO GIVES ONES LIFE SO THAT AN OTHER MAY GROW.    

Lianne:           Ah my God this is complicated! Who the hell programs all this?  There must be one hell-of-a computer up there!    

VOLKA:          THERE ARE NO COMPUTERS BUT YOU COULD SAY THAT HUMAN NATURE IS THE MOST COMPLEX COMPUTER AROUND.    

Lianne:           All right.  Okay, now.  Let's say I died in an earthquake surely that is not of my choice?    

VOLKA:          BUT IT IS YOUR CHOICE TO LIVE IN A PLACE THAT IS SUSCEPTIBLE TO EARTHQUAKES.    

Lianne:           That doesn't mean I want to be in one.  I'm sure that the people don't believe there is going to be an earthquake and they hope for the best.    

VOLKA:          WELL THAT WOULD BE THEIR CHOICE TO BELIEVE WHATEVER THEY WANT.  NO?    

Lianne:           All right then.  What if I was just on a visit and I got caught in an earthquake? I couldn't possibly know.    

VOLKA:          WELL YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND DOES NOT KNOW, BUT YOUR UNCONSCIOUS MIND DOES. YOU KNOW WHAT INTUITION IS? DO YOU KNOW WHAT EXTRA SENSORY PERCEPTION IS? WE ALL HAVE IT, SOME ARE MORE AWARE THAT THEY HAVE IT THEN OTHERS.  SOME ARE NOT CONSCIOUS THEY HAVE IT AT ALL. EVERYDAY OUR SUBCONSCIOUS MIND CAN ALSO SAVE OUR LIVES.  WHY DID YOU STOP IN TIME WHEN A CAR ALMOST HIT YOU, EVEN THOUGH YOU DID NOT SEE IT?  DO YOU KNOW?  DO YOU UNDERSTAND?    

Lianne:           Yes I guess so, It just seems like life is a big free-for-all. You can chose anything you want to do, even chose when and where to die. Although there are some that want to die and can't.  That is why some have decided to use euthanasia, you know, to have someone else help them to die.    

VOLKA:          BECAUSE WHATEVER THEY END UP DOING, LIVING OR DYING, IT IS BECAUSE THEY WANTED IT THAT WAY AND THEY NEEDED TO LEARN SOMETHING FROM THE EXPERIENCE.    

Lianne:           You talked before of someone's karma, can't we change our karma?    

VOLKA:          YOU SHOULD KNOW BY NOW THAT YOU CAN.   KARMA IS CAUSED BY UNRESOLVED HATRED, GUILT, FEAR, INSECURITY, AND ALL THE NEGATIVE FEELINGS YOU MIGHT HAVE FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS.    

Lianne:           Yeah, I guess you're right. I certainly have to think about this dying concept a little bit more though.